BRUISED IN THE MIDST OF LIFE

NOTE:  There is a very scattered theme to this piece of writing , as it is an imprint of an emotional outburst.


Ruining myself in the midst of my life, i wonder if it is me
Swaying away from the bane , trying to hide , i wonder if it is me
Being ignoramus to the harsh realities , acting naive , i wonder if it is me
So stubborn inside , faking it all , i dont even whine , i wonder if it is me

Looking for a widespread acceptance , i am asking for unreal
A confident outlook with a quivering heart, is what i am in real
Tattered , shattered and battered is all what i feel
Expecting the real and hoping for unreal , these wounds might never heal

Without a word being said by them i still feel am being ridiculed
I nod back with a grin to thier whispers , even with a feeling of being disdained
With my plucky voice i deceive them , they ll never know i feign confidence
Deciphering their vibes is arduous ,i wonder if they pity me or by them, i am envied

F.M.L

NOTE: This is one of the most heart felt writing of mine . There are two stories related to my real life hidden in it , if only you people can feel the words and assess what are they about . I would like to pardon for any punctuation mistakes which you might find in the content . Your reviews are what matter the most . Criticism and praise are both warmly welcomed . Enjoy the writing and do comment below .




The me you knew till yesterday , is dead now
There does not exist an answer for it , if you are to ask me how ?
I thank you all for crushing my expectations , here from me you all earn a bow
but i know I am reaping all what i did not sow .

Gearing up to speak today , i am breaking all the shackles,
Lets start with F , an undefined beautiful relation which baffles
someone i have trusted with my life has turned into an anon, though negativity is what my heart always stifles
but now i know this wont happen for long ,brainy thoughts are taking over and my heart is loosing all the battles

Thanks for making me realize , i cant expect from someone for whom i never did good
Had it not been for the past few days my brain would still have been sleeping under the hood
Trust me i needed you the most in these days , knowing everything , feeling everything you criminally neglected , this i never thought you would
but had it not been for this from you i would have never realized that an independent survival was possible for me and that even i could.

Taking a twist , now the focus turns
Come to M , legibly laughable it is that i looked for a feel in your emoticons
I felt for you , you took me for granted i expressed to you and you found in it nothing but fun
but i still stood with you knowing you have left deep scars inside , which have caused paining internal burns

I bore it all inside me for months but never justly reacted
I gave you care , i gave you my sleep , i gave you all my attention and found it all kindly rejected
doing some maths , take out the word 'Less' as common and then i can say you were caring, you were feeling  the reason,why now i am dejected .
but you deserve an enormous expression of gratitude, you made me realise to always go by tit for tat and that, for you i wrongly melted .

Cutting the story short , we are somewhere near the ending
L is what is the most important thing now , to be literal it means the life for which i am tending
Free of guilt's , Free of cares the heart has to be at peace and i guess, now right vibes are what it'll be sending
I am at verge of transformation , all I can do is be optimistic while fending .





   

Come To Our Rescue

Woke up in the middle of the night with a question in my mind, when will you come to our rescue  ?

The clock is ticking by but the night isn’t passing, just tell me one thing, when will you come to our rescue ?

The unrest in us has oozed and it’ll soon get my soul bruised, then will you come to our rescue?

 I have started to doubt your presence in my life and soon I might start believing I trusted you cause I was naive , is it then, when you’ll come to our rescue  ?

Once my trust on you is gone with your constant ignorance, life will soon turn meaning-less , will you then you come to our rescue ?

Your carelessness is painful and will soon cause me to be feeling-less, will then you come to our rescue ?

We could have made it special but the time has passed too far by, I know this will never work now,

But still with the hopelessness I bear inside and with this feeling-less heart I ask for one last time “COME TO OUR RESCUE” .

ITS TIME TO GO BRIGHT (Song)

NOTE: This is my first try to write a poem thinking of  it as a song . Please feel free to criticise or appreciate my work :) Thankyou.


                           
 It is growin dim, will you shine with me,

the sky is getting darker will you go bright with me,

 babie its time to go bright , lets shine .... lets shine together 

 babie its time to go bright , lets shine ....  lets shine together

lets climb up the hill, will you fly with me,

 we are gonna jump , will you go high with me ,

we take risks , let it happen , be satisf-ied (Read as fy) with me 

the heart is beating hard , come take a sigh with me, 

 babie its time to go bright , lets shine .... lets shine together 

 babie its time to go bright , lets shine ....  lets shine together

Have got the love in my eyes, will you smile with me ,

its time to be together ... , will you go to nile with me .

 babie its time to go bright , lets shine .... lets shine together 

 babie its time to go bright , lets shine ....  lets shine together.

Babie o Baibie will you be with me..................................................!!!!
Just be mine , just be mine , just be mine .

Written by :Murtaza Hasan 

                            

YES , I AM A CRIMINAL !!!!

Note : This is a poem written with a very candid and informal approach, the words are not those of a mature poet , but for sure represent my feelings . Read and comment . thankyou :) 




If LoOsing hope every once in a while, is a crime, yes i am a criminal,

If breAking into tears cause of those ugly thoughts ,is a crime , yes i am a criminal,

If mouRning the ignorance of my best friend , is a crime, yes i am a criminal ,

If takiIg an un-easing sigh every now and again with all the mess in my head ,is a  crime , yes i am a criminal.

If grinNing to please you all instead of giving a smirk , is a crime , yes i am a criminal 

If tryIng to please everyone out there by disdaining all my feelings, is a crime, yes i am a criminal.

                      written and conceived by : Murtaza Hasan

WHAT IF ???

Note: This time around i have tried something very new, i hope you people will like it. In this poem i have basically tried to put you people in certain situations and give you people with the options and asked how would you react . The concept is deep but i know my words arent mature enough and it all might seem childish an casual  , but still it is a try . I want you all to answer and comment about the poem  :) thankyou

What if tonight i fall asleep, never wake up again  and DIE

will you mourn it and tell yourself no this cant happen ,no (Read as nao-gh)!!! .

or will you be glad about it and 'll take a SIGH ?? 

what if i climb up the the tallest hill, right next to the river in my town ,

will you come to save me ??  and make me realize i am grown (Read as Gra-un)

or will you stand away , let me fall and drown ?

what if you find me all broken and bruised with tears in my eye,

will you stand with me ? and condole my cry ??? 

or will you distant yourself and leave me high and dry ?? ?

Written by :Murtaza Hasan

PAINS OUTLET

Writers Note: I know this isnt the best of the writings you ll see in the town, but this is something extremely raw and something right from the heart. I hope you people will like it. Your comments whether praises or criticism all are warmly welcomed :) thankyou

                                                     Keeping it all in my heart for long, now i feel its getting late,

Grinning away , i sway in this scorching light, am looking for some shade,

I reassure myself ... am getting better ... but what if i can see the chances fade 

should have burried these thoughts right there when the foundations were laid.

Deep inside , it is killing me , the end is nigh , that is what i fear,

I cant tell you, i cant tell him , i cant tell her , then with whom will i share,

behind my tears are hidden thoughts,thinking of whom i cant even dare,

but the hope will never die, i have firm faith in GOD , that to the right path HE will steer.

Written by: Murtaza Hasan

A FRIEND......

You have come into my life as a budding flower,
These few words of affection have brought me tons of power,
The mere presence of you has razed all the fears, which on my mind always hover.
You a beautiful pearl, are a gift of GOD's divine shower .

I wish i could help you out of this pain,
Just to see you smile , i ll hide my tears and feign,
Rest assure you will always find me with yourself to fight this bane
We are together and caring with no vain.

The tears which u had once shed, those precious pearls,will try to never again let them fall,
I know these arent chichi, if not stopped , they need to stall,
We will be together , enjoy , maybe go on a yawl ,
I want you to be there , right on the top of my friendship haul...<3

Written by : Murtaza Hasan

YOU ARE MINE

You are the apple of my pie,

You are a star in the sky,

You are the truth in my lie,

You are the feeling in my cry,

You are the water in this dry,

You are the wings in my fly,

You are the reason in my try,

You, you are just mine (Read As My)

Written by: Murtaza Hasan

MY LOST FRIEND

In each moment of despair , i looked for my "bestie" you,

In these painful times i always thought the one with me would be you,

Waiting each day for just a hello from you,

It hurts a ton , even knowing that you aint you.

My feelings for u were always pure as pearl,

My love , My care for you will never swirl,

no matter how ignorant u get,thoughts of you in my mind will always whirl,

those few words of yours, expressing care  for me will remain as purl.

All the joyus and blissful moments , with you , i shared,

always thought, for me, you are the one who always cared,

we were different,  but we dared,

i thank GOD that HE made a friend who is for me so dear.

Thoughts of your absence make me cry in these lonely nights,

our friendship was so beatific , that it attained heights.

we together flew as free kites,

you know your words in these ardous situations, for me, were lights.

Tonight lying down alone , i feign a smile

i hope one day you return to me and we ll have no rile,

i hope your carlessness and ignorance doesnt turn it into a vile,

Hoping against hope will be successful in bringing you back , whatever doing it takes yes I'll (Read as ILE)

Written By: Murtaza Hasan

"DEDICATED TO MY BESTIE"

BUT YOU AREN'T HERE WHERE ARE YOU ?

Well this poem is kind of raw, but i tell you its right from the heart . It might not make sense to certain people but i hope you people will try an understand it.

Today , tonight , tomorrow and forever , i need you,
but you aren't here , where are you ?
In these sleepless nights my mind is occupied by your thoughts
but  you aren't here, where are you ?
Dubious thoughts make my heart quiver, all i need is your touch,
but you aren't here, where are you ?
The tears are gonna fall now, from my eyes, searching for you
but you aren't here, where are you .?
Today again ,the anxiety will  drown me in the dungeons of guilt, I will need you,
but you aren't here , where are you ?
whatever they said about me, has left deep wounds in me,  i need you to fill em with your love,
but you aren't here where are you ..?
you said you wont go away, I need that sweet warm hug of yours , i need it right now
but you aren't here , where are you ?
I have cried out the pain , yet again, your absence kills me 
but you aren't here where are you  ?
Get back to me 'Babie', Get back to me .

YES I CRIED (A Quatrain)

Listening to your cry, I cried, Wanted to wipe away your tears, I failed ! but, tried,
That bruising in my heart is still there , wish these tears could hide,Our love, our affection, is pure as pearl, and in them YES ! I do find pride.

AM I SANE ? (A Quatrain)

The night again brings the scare, the horror, the pain,

Dubious thoughts choking my breaths, my heart is in strain,

Connecting the regretful events of past, to the future,

A foolish deed, never living in present i ask myself , Am I Sane ?


Written By: Murtaza Hasan

A LOST CAUSE

ONE FOR THE TEENS

 

Have lost my words, I don't know why.?

Loosing hope, I am tattered, taking a sigh.

Not once, not twice, infinite times, knowing not wise ! Still i cry ,

Leaving scars deep in me, acidic in nature, these tears, will they ever dry .?

Cutting my chest into bits, the feelings i had long bore in my heart,away they fly,

Palpitating heart at knotts, choking breaths, tell me, the end is nigh !

But, what if i aspire to be a star, wanna go far and reach the sky ? !


Written By :Murtaza Hasan

That Limping Left Leg

DEDICATED TO ALL THE FATHERS

The Limping left leg, got tired, got bruised , still worked day and night,
Protecting me from pains, worked hard to secure my future,aiming to see my life, bright.

Coming back home, grinning, just to satisfy me, preventing me from freight,
That heart bore all the pains, took all the jarrs ,but in the gloomy night still became my light.

Watching the load on you weakened shoulders,now i wish to turn the world upside down,
Wanna cry out loud ! look into the eyes of those antagonists and frown.

Force those foes, to treat you like a king, with a golden crown,
Wanna fall deep into cheerful moments with you, and in them i wanna drown.

Written by :Murtaza Hasan